Excuse the sappyness,,,

My heart is hurting so much right now. All i want to do i lie in my bed and cry. UGH.................................. I hate this feeling !!! What happened to my icy bitch exterior. I am getting soft, i need to return to the bitch that i once was. I think its the selfish brat in me, wanting what i can't have because i know if i could then i wouldn't be her pissing and moaning like some overweight balding forty year old women on the set of Jerry Springer episode of My mother and my sister slept with my pimp. i don't know what love is but i suppose if you have to think about whether or not you love somebody the answer is no. Right? So if its not love then what is this foreign emotion that makes me want to scream and cry at the same time. is this college ? What the FUCK this is not what i signed up for. Btw, I have class at 9 :30am tomorrow. Wow my day keeps getting better and better!