The boy is mine

I have never lost a friendship over a boy but I suppose there is a first time for everything. The thing is it doesn't bother me as much as it 'should' at first it got to me because no penis is worth the end of a friendship but the more i think about and the more time that has passed the less i care and the desire to fix the friendship is no longer there. i was given the chance to talk about it with the girl will call her Ms. Ghetto Wannabe but i decided against it because.... i don't know. My feelings are if we are as such good friends as you claim we were and what i did hurt you or whatever your feeling may be, why can't you come to me? We shouldn't have to be tricked to an awkward DC dinner by are mutual and resident black Dr. Phil friend. If you can't come to my face and say i hate you, your hurt me or just simply why, then we are not friends, at least not by my definitions.
Because when I really thought about what we know about each other what did i come up with? nothing. besides the superficial bullshit of you know where i grew up and how many sibling i have, what do we truly know of each other? I don't know where the blame lies for that.. on no one. I am trying to cut the bullshit out of my life.. its to short to be concerned with the things that in the long run don't mean anything she known me for a year but i have 18 other years of life and so does she that have shaped us both and if she hates me.. so be it because in the end it those who love us that really matter.
Although I must admit i can't stand the thought of anyone disliking me especially over something so trivial or maybe its only trivial to me and thats the problem? So to make along story there this boy and we will call him Mr. Daddy Big Dick ( take what you want from the nickname) anyways I hooked up with first one night and the same night he hook up with Ms. Ghetto fastfoward a couple weeks later and he is still hooking up with both of us except Ms. Ghetto doesn't find out and when she does it becomes an issue. issued solved and apologies made on both sides and they go out for about a month. A couple month later toward the end of the year and the beginning of this one we hook up more like have sex if i am being completely honest. She finds out and this is where we are today. Ugh I am unsure of what to do and need some advice. I am I wrong? I think so but i have to much pride and to stubborn to ever say so out loud