Today is my 20 birthday and its probably the least anticipated birthday I have ever had. Maybe thats a sign of growing up; where birthdays become less about candles and presents and becomes something more I am not sure how to describe the feelings I am having.
I thought that 19 and 20 were the in between years where you are stuck between the unleveled playing field of childhood and adulthood.(old enough to vote and die in the military but not able to sit and have a drink in a bar) But 19 was a big year for me I have changes so much- good and bad. It almost indescribable the amount of change that have gone through
I am no longer a teenager but still i feel like a child. I think your 20 are about defining yourself. everything before was living by my parents, teacher, and friends definitions of who i ought to be. but now i am begging to have the courage of being true to myself and living as my soul see fits. Even if the majority the people never get to meet her, she is more than you can imagine.
I kind of had a moment today where i started to panic, I am 20 yrs old and what have i done with my life. If i died tomorrow would it all be worth it? The answer is no. I have a lot of thing i want to accomplish a lot of expectations for myself and my plan is to take it one day at a time and truly carpe diem
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