I disappoint myself.
I have a huge fear of disappointment. I cant stand the thought of disappointing the most important people in my life but more than that myself because i am the only one who has to live with the decisions and choices that i make in my life- no one else.
But still i make choices that are contrary to the way that i want to live my life.
I know i need to change but i don't.
I wake up the next morning and do the same shit that the night before that i swore to myself i was going to change.
Why isn't the pain enough for me to change?
What will it take me for me to go from the emptiness of words to the fulfillment of actions?
I am out. Tomorrow is another day. Another try, another disappointment... lets hope not.
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