I couldn't do.
I can't tell her.
I am so afraid i will say it and see the love she has for me change.
I can't risk it
That would break my heart beyond repair.

I have to make some important phone calls tomorrow and see if i can fix this by myself.
I hate talking on the phone.
Such a simple thing but is scares the shit out of me.
I need to be stronger than this.
I am stronger than this.

I just hope i get the answer that lead to light rather than the dark cause god knows how dark it is here now.