and they lived happly ever after apart......

Every story has an ending and i believe for anyone to move on there needs to be closure. Its funny i started this awhile but i didn't finish it for many reasons. This is the closest I have come to explaining in words what I am feeling

I talked to my mommy about it this morning because it bothered me that much and as much as i like to think that she doesn't know me in fact she know me far to well. So I came to several conclusion some are harder to admit then other but all equal in the peace of mind they have/ are bringing me. This is more a letter to myself I had to get it all out

I think the hardest thing is to admit the truth to yourself, So here is my truth

I. Its unbelievable to see how love can set me free.

I loved you. The way Shakespeare wrote compares nothing to the way I felt for you.
My bounty is as deep as the sea,
My love as deep; the more I give to thee,
The more I have, for both are infinite.
Love has a way of breathing life into you so thank you for making me alive. The laughter and smiles that i have had have been the greatest reward in loving you.


II. Hate is a strong word but
I don't hate you
Every human being has a redeeming quality about them and you have many. But that's not enough for me. My mom said the question becomes were there was more laughter than tears caused by him and I said laughter but the tears weigh heavier on my heart, harder to forget and I think its like that for a good reason.

III. There's no point in thinking about yesterday.It's too late not. It won't ever be the same.We're so different now.

This is the hardest part. I had typed something else but after i read it I erased it because it left me feeling to vulnerable to have part of my heart spewed out across the screen. But what i will say is that to me its a matter of the recognition of my own self worth and if you can't honor and recognize that then I will find someone who will. its more than that and simpler. what it really comes down to is that if u can't have you as a lover than be my friend and you haven't been either.



I' ve made my choice and made up my mind. I am moving on, life is to short. Change is the currency of life and I think this will be a good one so HS consider this my last goodbye.