2008 Reflections

2008 and is almost over and the stroke of midnight can not come any sooner. I am ready for this year to be over! So what did I learn in 2008? Many lessons were learned this year. This year if anything has been very humbling. I've learned a lot about myself, my friends and how kindness can deliver you from the darkness of yourself.

Let me explain...

There were some moments this year where i didn't think i was going to make it. i didn't want to make. I didn't really write about it here and i don't think i will or maybe one day when i am ready it will spill it from my inner mind but until then it is mine to keep. Actually it hasn't been my to keep but it is mine to share when i choose but i digress.... You know how you think you'll never be that person ? That unlike superman you immune to kryptonite-untouchable. Except life isn't like that. We're all fallible and yes even i have been brought to my knees by my own kryptonite.

I.
It was during this time that I learned a lot about myself and some of the people in my life. I know what I want from life and I refuse to settle for anything less. I don't regret one choice I've made this year because I learned from them and i am better for it because i refuse to be anything less. I am the master of my own destiny and I am not sure of the existence of heaven or hell. If there is a(are) god(s)or not but what i do know if there is some judgment when you die. If you have one sentence to describe how you lived you life. Mine would be: I lived my life the way that felt was right to my soul, my journey, my path on this earth was mine and mine alone to walk and I hold no regrets, not one.
II.
My friends have humbled me beyond words. When i need someone the most they were there without question or judgment and i can't begin to explain what that has done for me. The people that are in my life are not all my friends and 2009 will change that. Relationships are either are worth fighting for and saving or leaving and letting them die.

III.
There was a women. A stranger. Who healed me in away that I don't have the ability to explain in words. She didn't even know my first name but has left a permanent mark on my soul and I thank her for that.

2008 wasn't all bad there was a lot of good too and I am thankful that I get to see another year. I am looking forward to 2009 with much anticipation. I'll be 21 in a couple of weeks! I cannot wait to celebrate with some good drinks and amazing friends. I can't wait to go back to school and get refocused on whats really important. I miss Atl and can't wait for him to come back because i miss sleeping next to him ( did I really just write that?) hopefully 2009 will on have good things for us.

I almost forgot
tomorrow is my daddy 50 Birthday !

Paz,Amor,y Besos !
drink it up and live it down
Happy New Years(almost)