Patience

Maybe i am waiting around for Pandora's box to be open.
By that i mean waiting for you to be real. for me to understand you for who you are.
But i know better. I have been here before.
Wondering how or why we are even friends.
I have run out of patience.
Waiting for the great reveal and i am starting to believe it doesn't exist.
I was after i had a conversation with HS that helped me come to this realization.
In the morning I woke up to ATL gently running his fingers across my body and I realized i am blessed. I have some amazing people in my life. People that i am willing that i to fight for our friendship for.
My friendship with the HS is one that I am no longer willing to fight for. How can I when i have people like M, eli, and even ATL who remind me what friendship is.
Not every relationship has to be saved and this is one that won''t be.
Its just the slow death thats painful.
Watching someone that you loved and cared about mean less and less to you each day.