Some Shit Figured Out That

I cant't get enough of ATL no matter how much i try to deny it
something about the summer time makes me want to be in a realtionship
I over thinking everything
I should do more and worry less
I have decided to make a list of what i would like to accomplish this summer
The only question that matters is: How much do you really want it?

Till some more shit is figured out...

Summer Days

The first days of my summer have been filled with booze, illicit drug use, less time spent in my house than between my time spent in Boston and Brooklyn, and a lot has been going on with me personally- just trying to figure some shit out so until then...

Hold my Heart

I received a text message at approximately 5:40pm stating: I think I am in love with you. To which he followed up with four minutes later with: I hope I didn't scare you.
This has left me very confused. The whole notion of love is something i find better in idea than in practice.
I haven't written anything about this boy. So i will call him Southern Boy because he is originally from the dirty south. i met him on my 21 birthday in Boston and we have been talking ever since.
when someone tells you I love you it comes with some responsibility because you have that person's heart in your possession and i am not sure if i want that responsibility.

Apparently I am nothing

Feels like everyone sees some version of me but never me. Always right past me or right through me.

I dont feel like writing about this anymore so

i am so fucking annoyed for several reasons:

two of them involving the penis carrying species
both of which i would like to castrate at this moment

one stupid cunt(yes i said it) for causing me to act ignorant and had no idea how she almost had me experiencing a nigger moment which could have been potentially fatal because i don't know how she would have survived a 14 floor jump from the library.

What i wouldn't give to do this year over again

Musical Monday Musing

This past summer was a huge one for me for a lot of reasons. One of them being me finally getting over the Haitian Sensation and this song reminded me of why. I have never thought loving someone was reason enough for anything- to be with them especially. Love or what you think is love can act like an illusion blinding you to the truth of the person standing in front of you. So when my illusion was lifted what did it reveal? If that boy don't love you by now, then he never will and i deserved someone who is so much more than an illusion of love and i think i may have found it.

paz,amor,y besos

Musical Monday Musing (lates as ususal)

now i don't believe in violence but i would make
the exception for HS because no one is more
deserving than him.