I haven't had good sex in so long I wouldn't know what a good penis was if it was inside of me

I feel very alone, the feeling is very overwhelming. I can hear my heart pounding in my chest. Strangly enough it makes me feel acutely alive sometimes i forget. I dont know how to deal anymore,sad things is i am really am alone. No one to call when i feel so close to the edge one more breath and i might fall.

I feel like mu world is filled with half people. People who give half a damn, who know you half way, who try half as much as you try, love you half as much as you do them. I already feel completly alone what the difference if I actually am.
There isnt.

I am ready to let go in the purest since. I am ready and really I have no choice. I can't live like this anymore. I refuse too.

I realized that I just don't love you, not like I use to

I thought that part of being in a realtionship is that you are supposed to feel less alone than how is it I fill more alone than ever.

Praying to the job gods that they put in an extra word for me

Where were you when ever thing was falling apat?

Well,I was right here, in the eye of the storm and yourself,?

I feel as if everything has been falling apart and revealing itself for what it really is. Scary when reality doesn't match up to your long held perceptions. My realtionship has been the big reveal and myself has been the biggest. i feel like i haven't been living for at least the past year but really longer. i have been going through the motions but really i haven't breathed in months. I am so lonely. I want a real human connection i thought i had one with Romeo but that has died like everything else. I don't know why i am with him anymore. I think i am afraid if i break up with him I will be truly alone and I am afraid that loneliness will kill me.

But i already feel dead.