Where were you when ever thing was falling apat?

Well,I was right here, in the eye of the storm and yourself,?

I feel as if everything has been falling apart and revealing itself for what it really is. Scary when reality doesn't match up to your long held perceptions. My realtionship has been the big reveal and myself has been the biggest. i feel like i haven't been living for at least the past year but really longer. i have been going through the motions but really i haven't breathed in months. I am so lonely. I want a real human connection i thought i had one with Romeo but that has died like everything else. I don't know why i am with him anymore. I think i am afraid if i break up with him I will be truly alone and I am afraid that loneliness will kill me.

But i already feel dead.